Sitting here at the computer watching Jane's Addiction vintage concert videos and while watching a live version of "Then She Did..." I have become struck with an enormity of conviction and need for nostalgic moments that created the me I am today.  I traveled in groups through my teen years, which I am 19, so that wasn't so long ago.  I was introduced to Jane's Addiction about fours years ago and have slowly decreased my moments of listening.  Ever since I left Lollapalooza after having seen Jane's Addiction for the first time in my life, I hit a period where I wouldn't listen to them.  It almost seemed too much for me to handle that I had seen my influences right in front of me, what felt like they were playing for me.  I stood right in front of Eric Avery and I could feel the energy he was putting out that the others, especially Perry seemed to be lacking.  I could have sworn at one point I was rocking out so hard and staring at Eric rocking out and just feeding off of him, that he kind of observed that connection with a fan.  I felt him look right at me as I jumped around just losing myself.  That moment was the only moment in my life, that I can truly say, that I completely lost myself.  All the videos I had watched, all the performances, the life they lived, now playing out in real time.  I have never felt energy like that before.  Just Eric observing my wild and free behavior (if he actually did) was enough to make this the most real thing I have experienced yet.  I came there to connect with all those times I had of listening to the band while riding across bridges of the oceans.  I literally listened to them every time I traveled to the beach.  Anyways, watching what I watched tonight made me just really connect with my sense of purpose again, something I have been lacking since a few months after lollapalooza.  I do not know, but I guess I just wanted to preserve those feelings that came up in me during the time I had listened to Jane's up to the point of seeing them at lollapalooza.  I remember everything they once were, and everything they brought to me in my adventures of growing up, experiencing love, romance, friendship, religious drop outs, school, the ocean, etc.  Jane's Addiction is my band that I have great love for and always will because it opened up a way of life to me, a life of freedom of choice and life of art and expression, and above all a life of changing things in this world that are worth finding a way to change.  To the band that once was, and to the guy (Eric Avery) who still is.  Thank you.