I have a mind that I truly believe in and I do anything it takes to protect that.  I am not necessarily saying that I am closed minded.  I am open to new ideas, but the old ideas I believed in get on my nerves when I try to push forward.  In this life we cannot believe everything.  It is up to us to progress into what we think we need to progress with.  In my case, I can only progress by allowing myself to not necessarily believe that there is a god out there.  I become full of hate when I am surrounded by things that keep me stuck in the ground.  Last night that hate came out when I was pushed over the edge.  Some say I have anger issues, some say it's satan, some say it's disrespect, some say it's the computer, but I say it's those people pushing me into trying to make me believe in something I cannot and will not believe.  I am completely fine when my family does not bring up religion or god, but when it is brought up I just can't help but to think back on all the times I have seen people do shitty things to me in the name of religion, so I cannot help but to become upset.  I believe in the human condition.  When I see people living like trash and talking about god, I think to myself, why the fuck would people want to believe in that.  It's like those people use god to justify their conditions.  That doesn't go for everyone, there are rich people that believe in god.  I just choose not to and it upsets me that I am not allowed to question their believe, but they sure can question mine.