Paralyzed with fear
I wanted you
in a way I've never wanted anyone
anyone but everyone
but you

I watched you standing there
there you stood thinking about something
something so foreign to everybody else
everybody else but me

I knew
but how could you have known
you had no idea

I sat and reasoned with my fucking brain
made up every fucking excuse in the book
to not say a word
I just sat and did nothing

You finally walked away
leaving me with myself
and all that could have been

You stopped like you had forgotten something
I smiled
you turned around and came back
I was filled with joy

you turned around came back
and back
and back
towards me
closer
closer
looking at me you looked towards me
towards me I saw you
approaching closer and closer
and then
you were gone.

just like that. you left like a dream.