I am beginning to realize the beauty of process.  The absolute beginning of something becomes a journey if we let it grow.  I am so inspired to do great and beautiful things with my art, but I am also a beginner.  I have to keep that in mind because sometimes I do things or spend a while working on a project that isn't very inspiring to me.  If a song isn't inspiring to me, that I make, I will not let others hear it.  I first have to be inspired to know that what I am doing is worth putting out there for others to hear.  There is so much poor quality, uninspiring "fluff" out there, that I do not want to flood it up with anymore.

Along with this adventure also comes the financial aspect of all this.  As of right now, just for the record, I have no car and no money.  I have spent it all on music equipment, which is what I love, and need at the moment for what I am creating, so it's all cool.  Not many people read this, as it is mostly for my own satisfaction of looking back months later and reading my thoughts to see a difference in then and now, so if anyone reads this I will clarify.  Doing things we want to do comes with an unfortunate but wise price.  The reason I say wise is because sometimes we need barriers to stop ourselves from going too far into something and allowing ourself time to recollect and after we have thought it out, we go back even stronger.  Anyways, I have been doing some thinking and figuring out how to become an organized individual so ultimately I can organize my music and art in a way that will be sequenced in an effective way.  Chaos is a beautiful thing, but within chaos are organized series of events.  Each of those events put together form something chaotic, so in a way it is organized chaos.  That is what I am working on.  So finance is put into the equation because finance is an important part of the process.  How will I succeed if I cannot support myself along the way to get my art and music across.  I need those moments of security and vacation, just like anyone else.  Just because my sentences are not making any fucking logical flow the way I wanted, I will just make bullet points on how I am trying to organize my situation and learning life.  Maybe someone reading this will take these points into consideration for their life, but just an experiment for me personally.

- moleskine notebooks (the beauty and simplicity of these notebooks are awesome, just an overall great way to help in organizing thoughts and making a great tool for productivity.)
- one at a time, work on gaining habits.  Each month concentrate on one habit, while refining previously set habits.
- financially, focus on how many hours a week I need to work in order to afford what fits my life needs and passions.  Ex. car payment, vacation, rent money, food, gas, insurance, utilities, music, software, etc.
- take the rest of that time spent working towards your dream, and concentrate on education and honing a craft.
- drink coffee (trust me, I notice a difference without it), but don't drink too much
- time management is essential.  Coffee comes in to play on this one a lot.  Set a time each day and drink coffee during that period and work with focus until it wears off or you lose concentration or need a break.
- exercising is important if we want to keep mentally fit as well, in order to keep us concentrated with organizing ourselves.

Just a simple list of main points, but just something for me to look back on when I am discouraged which happens more than I should allow, so being able to physically see what I want to do helps in lifting my spirits.  Also, I truly believe in organizing our lives, not just for ourselves, but for the rest of the world that is watching us and is inspired by our actions.  Just the thought of the day for me.