It is so annoying looking at someone destroy themselves, mainly because they can do something about it. But they choose to surround themselves with addiction to feeling sorry for themselves. Some people just want attention, some people just don't give a fuck, some people can't help it, others like to sit back and watch. Me, none of the above. I live according to how I want to live, and that is all. You can't go through life trying to please someone, honestly they have to please themselves before two complete each other. Or else things will get all fucked up. That is why I give up on relationships, for now, until I find someone that believes in themselves and can give me just as much as I can give them, or balance each other, not bring one another down. It's all bullshit until you wise up and say I can handle things by myself, then everything else can fall in line, you don't have to rely on other people, because other people will just hurt the fuck out of you if you let them. I've been in both situations, that is why it is best to be out of the norm of things like that. Be by yourself for a while and find yourself, then things will start to look good.