About that last post. On a more logical thinking scale, I realize how fucked up this world can be and I have to keep that in mind or else I will lose control of myself. Exposing myself to the world will not only help me understand what I can change, but what I can't change. Knowing this keeps me sane. Sometimes I feel like I have no more control left, but most other times I feel as if my control is more present than ever, that is why I am still sane. I have to start at one corner at a time.