Learning is a good thing. We walk around and see a lot of stuff. We look at billboards, look at magazines, watch t.v. and eat mcdonalds. Everything seems to be in color and pretty. On the surface everything seems innocent and pretty until you really learn what it is you are looking at. Things are shit. Ads are bullshit, mcdonalds is just as bad as a sniper taking out people from atop a building. I am not a paranoid person, but I am just trying to become self aware of all around me. People are always trying to sell you items you don't need to make a buck so they, in turn, can buy something someone is trying to sell them who are trying to buy who are trying to sell so they can use them to make their money to give them. Face it, America is one big consumer orgy. We feed off of commercial. We need these things. We make money to buy, then turn around and sell someone on something that repeats itself. Everyone has to have the American dream, or else they are losers and losers own less than a 1500 square foot living area. All we do is eat, sleep, and consume. Everyone is worried about making money for their "stuff" instead of worrying about what matters, worrying about something that could change a little part of this world. Instead we rush home to the six o'clock news after a long day at the office where there we suck cock and take it up the ass for a living, and after the news we watch more t.v. I am guilty of all of these things, but I am learning to take control. I am learning what matters and what I don't need. I am learning to simplify so I can clarify and create something that matters. I am learning to be part of a revolution that doesn't worry about consumerism. I am finding myself and finding what I need to do in this life.

I mow a particular yard where there I found a dead rabbit last year. Everytime I mowed the yard I noticed how much different it looked than last time. I did this for a year. I realized something. A body decomposes into the earth much faster than our "stuff". I quickly realized what mattered. Our "stuff" will outlast us in the end, but in the end none of that matters, so why then are we so concentrated on our possessions. We need to take care of ourselves and our spirit and body. Part of that is becoming self aware and learning how to live.

Take control of your life
do what you love doing
be nothing less than that
let everyone have what they want
and you will have so much more in the end
because you matter more than anything

Learn.
Think.
Create.
Life is beautiful.