I hate days where my unhappiness controls my life and the only thing I can do is cry, I fucking hate it, but I try, so hard, I hope you know how hard I try for you, sometimes I'm not sure if it's enough, I don't know how harder I must try. I will never leave, I got scared today thinking what if you left me. Fear controlled me today, but it was much more than that. I love you so much and I'm scared someday you wont feel that way anymore. I can't control this fear because it always happens to me and it has happened too much. I want this to be different, permanent, always. I will keep trying for you, so hard, no matter what I do. All I ask is your love in return, that's all, real love, not crush love.

-d