The past 3 day of my life were the slowest I have recalled in years. I have found the secret to traveling finally…no agenda? Seems like having no agenda would produce a bad outcome, maybe so, but the adventuring is more abundant. With a new experience behind me, and more to come, I am left wondering a couple things. First I have gained confidence in moving out to LA, which is my goal, especially with all that I have to bring forth to an audience. Second I realize the chaos of this life and how amazing and beautiful wonder can be. We drove first to Charlotte NC, not realizing that the theme park we were supposed to go to would be closed for the week. When we realized this we headed 5 hours away to the beach, Carolina Beach to be exact. I went with 2 people I didn’t know very well but after the trip I feel as if I have known them forever, which is awesome. The girl on the trip is Knicky, which I found her first name is Andrea. It’s funny how secret a crush can be especially unnoticeable when you hide it well, although I’m not sure if it was well hidden. I’m not sure if she realizes this and don’t know if someone will read this, but if you read this Knicky, know that it’s difficult for me to tell you how I feel because I don’t want you to not feel that way and then me tell you and ruin a friendship by awkwardness, so I am very scared this will be the case and I have developed a strong liking for you. I am very cautious because if we just stay friends I don’t want to want something you don’t because that will crush me, so I hope so much that you feel the same for me. I can’t just come out and ask because I feel stupid like you would say you don’t feel the same and that would hurt really bad, but for now I’m hoping you read this. I hate not being able to say exactly what’s on my mind at times, but for the past 3 days, if I would have spoken my mind, you would have realized how amazing I think you are and how beautiful you are to me. I don’t want you to think I am a sarcastic idiot, cause I was only just excited, but at heart I am a deeply loving human being that only wants to give you the world as your playground and let me play with you on it. I have wanted to find someone like you for a long time, and now that I have found someone, I don’t quite know how to handle my feelings or if they will even be mutual. I’m always hoping, I hope this time my hopes come true and stay for good. A change would be nice just as an environmental change was amazing for the past 3 days. Please make my hopes come true, I’ve been patient and don’t know how long I must suffer. You created something in me that won’t go away, I hope I have created the same for you.